So these two weeks has been more like a marathon for me. My nieces surprised us and arrived one week before planned and they are only going to stay for 2 weeks, not four! We managed to visit Science Center, Wild Wild Wet, and Night Safari before we all headed for Malaysia for my Grandmother's Bday. (no, im 100% Singaporean)

I felt so rushed spending time with them since they come back every 1 or 2 years. Its like you squeeze all the love for that period of time into that 2 weeks they are back. Not that i was like a super nice uncle when they haven migrated. But you know you still miss them. Sometimes you wonder why nowadays life seems to living us instead. Why must we only have that time slot to spend time with loved ones like a prison visit. Is that better cuz you will cherish the moments? Maybe we take things for granted and when its gone, we start to realise how important they were.

So recently, many unhappy things happen and you can feel your flight or fight soo active. Insecurity maybe a way to see why some things happen or why sometimes you feel how you feel. Several occasions, i thought to myself maybe my flight or fight system is never turned off. When you feel insecure so frequently, does your body fail to recognise when to turn on and off? If its turned on 24/7, you suffer from the side effects of it, and in a long run, you may just build a wall around yourself unconsciously. By then, you are really alone.