Had an interview with Ms Petrinal, my ex lecturer in the morning, and as i was driving, i began to think, but this time i reminded myself to compartmentalise my emotions because they would cloud judgement whether you like it or not.

Since i was 15, I made a decision to be a dietician after taking Food and Nutrition in secondary school. The ideal of it seems so cool, like work in a hospital, help patients and care for people while drawing a reasonable pay and somewhat it balances what i like to do and what i can do. Thus, even though i could go to JC or enter any courses i wanted in an other Polytechnic, i chose Applied food science and nutrition that only required L1R4 of 15 points.

Anyway, along the way, taking modules and internship, major project, i got disappointed after seeing the shit dieticians get. Still, i feel lucky that my passion kept in on the track. Seriously, i did thought of taking the easy way out to study like business or banking or even just go into fashion design or photography full time.

Everything in life is a decision, even not deciding itself is a decision (quote from my late vocal teacher and friend, Nicole Lai). Did i regret making my career decision so young in life? Well, all i can say is that every job has its ups and downs. If everytime you see the downside and change path, you will get no where in life. I do get bored after i read so much science, but i know i want to create a better and healthier lifestyle for everyone. :) Maybe its not that im bored or anything, buts its because i got more comfortable with it already. Going abit into design did gave me a breath of fresh air but so will going into business, so will going into music. But at the end of the day, i still love my science. :D I realise like i really love nutrition, design and all but when there are obligations and restrictions, its just human nature to feel stressed out.

I don't know if its the school or Ms Petrinal but what she said brought my mindset back to when i was in Poly, where i was more open minded, more flexible, less expecting more grateful. I felt adrenaline rushing just talking about going back to school to work. Nothing's confirm but im hopeful.

My lecturer injected the impossibilites of the future back to my head. Impossbilities is something a positive person would say. It sometimes is also known as the uncertainties of the future. However, that need not be worrysome but it can be something beautiful instead. We don't know what the future brings. So all we need to do is to cherish the present because if we keep harping on the past, we can never truly move forward into the so called future.

Im going to get back all that zest for life i lost in army. VA VA VROOM WITH MY LIFE!