photograpy is love.

the heart always wins

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

It was just a few silly pictures you dumb dumb.

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

hello? are you nobody?

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Nobody is perfect. But lets make ourselves perfect for each other. Forget about the past because i am your present and i WILL be your future. (quote from wei ching)

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

Get yourself together

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you are going to get. So, live everyday to its fullest and throw your fears far far behind!

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

fear

Friday, June 25, 2010

This morning, i woke up thinking all the fears of last night would just melt away in my dreams. Life's uncertainty has finally got to me. Maybe all these while, i have been pushing people away for fear that if i ever get emotionally attached to them, the pain of losing would be too much to handle. Having already gone through major losses prematurely in my life, im really afraid i won't be able to pick myself up again.

Dear God, please hold me.

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

Lo?.......Ve.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

They say love is a matter between two people but is it? I have a close friend who got into a relationship thinking what the heck, i should live the moment. 9 months into it, still living the moment, she ask herself, is he the one? And when reality sets in, does the other half only consist of him or her and nothing else? Love, i can't help but wonder, if there's only room for two, why does it need four alphabets?

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

be kinder?

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

My friend once told me, be kinder than necessary for everyone is fighting some kind of a battle in their lives. Come to think of it, actually we are all fighters. We push through the womb to arrive to this world, vulnerable and naked. We learn how to walk the walk and talk the talk but it never seems enough. Life has so many lessons that he wants to teach us but do we have the courage to enter his classroom? We pursue love of all kinds; kinship, BGR, friendship, partnership. Sometimes the courage to face the fact that one day that they all might be gone is far more than the courage to obtain it. Maybe my friend was right about this. That everyone is indeed battling; the fear of failing, the fear of getting it, and the fear of losing it once you get hold of it.

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

thank you

<3 you baby

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

fucking maid

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

KNN CCB YOU FUCKING USELESS MAID CANT EVEN TAKE CARE OF ONE BABY. THE HOUSE SHOWS NO SIGN THAT THERE IS A PRESENCE OF A MAID THAT AT THE MOST BASIC SKILL WHO KNOWS HOW TO KEEPS THINGS CLEAN.

YOU THINK MY NEPHEW WILL CRY SO MUCH IF WE SACK YOU? YOU ARE MOST DEFINITELY WRONG. NO EMPLOYEE. AND I SAY AGAIN, NO EMPLOYEE IS FUCKING INDISPENSABLE.

sigh..... im just so vexed i must vent out my anger... sorry guys. i written 2 article on my iphone but i guess i have to wait awhile to post it. :S im so pissed i had to listen to beatles' let it be to calm myself down.

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

updates!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

I attended a funeral of a close relative last week. My mother's brother who was my uncle passed on. It was a heart wrenching event and it made realise how fragile life is, how i MUST not should cherish all my family and loved ones because time just won't wait till you find the courage to say I love you to them. Anyway, amidst all these grief, i was still appointed the photographer by my cousin-in-law to shoot the funeral. I really hate the fact that i have to snap away while everyone is weeping. I would appreciate that i join them instead of standing outside the crowd shooting. However, since this was the last thing i could do for him, i gladly did. i will post maybe one or two photos when i get hold of them but i don't really see a point shooting depressed, tearing, faces. I felt like a reporter sent to a disaster for a moment.

Then my another uncle from Malaysia approached me to shoot his kids' portrait to hang in their newly renovated rooms. And here's the product. I simply used ikea lamps and a white wall from another room in my home. I must say that whatever i learnt about lighting in NAFA was crucial in producing these photos. Basics, although boring, is pretty much needed to lay foundation to everything. Pak Kee, if you are reading this, u ought to have attended all the lesssons! and not asking me how to use simple photoshop techniques when you went for a half year course too!

Portraits

OBSESSIONS

I WANT THESE!

I really shouldn't get them since i'm saving up for my taiwan trip in october. But these shoes are SICK! love the patent leather shine. It looks good with pants, jeans, shorts, berms!!! can dress up or dress down! and the tee shirt is kinda cute.. Oh man.. dilemma.

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

words from the seeker

Friday, June 18, 2010

I know whats its like to doubt yourself at every turn,
but i realise if i stop and question every decision i made,
i'll never get anywhere

All we can do is make the best choices we can,
and keep putting one foot in front of the other

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

{:(

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

not the best of times to be sick; my "da jiu" eldest maternal uncle just passed... start of a five day funeral. :(

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

me and the city

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Judging from my blog counter, i don't think many people read this space so i might as well pour my hearts out. Today, i was so heart broken i didnt even know that i had skipped dinner till now as i blog. You know the thing about singlehood. So nice, so carefree, no attachments, no obligations to no one. Only one thing to advise, sleep early if you are single because the night seem to get harder to get by as you age. These lonely nights are going to make you feel that life is not worth living without the other half to share with.

Im turning 22 this year and have yet encountered anyone special. Or maybe i should say i have encountered few special, one very special but well, you know the answer to that. Why else would i still be single. Before that, i only know that if two people are in love, they get together and live happily ever after because as we were taught in fairy tale school, that the big O Love triumps all. Well, maybe all except reality, which is basically everything we see. Love is simple yet ironically the most complicated thing i've came across other than mathematics.

My iphone app has this really meaningful quote:

Love know no reasons,
Love know no lies,
Love defies all reasons,
Love has no eyes.
But Love is not blind,
Love sees but doesn't mind

I really hate to use the word someday. But yeah, someday, this person will come. Someone who will make you laugh, cry; fart beside you. hahaha, yeah someone who doesn't mind the you without contact lenses, without hair wax, without a tan. Someone who will look at you in your oh so comfortable home clothes with holes and still say I love you. Good Luck to everyone! Because you just have to keep believing no matter what.

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

be life a drama

Friday, June 4, 2010

They say life is like a drama.

and i deserve better

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

Updates of my life

Thursday, June 3, 2010

I finally completed a few thing i set out to acheive this year. I finished the photography certificate course by NAFA. Initially i wanted to continue to specialise in product photography but that kinda cost close to 1K. Although i really don't mind the cost even if i have to quite shopping and a few things. hahaha... but i got news that the teacher in charge was Mr KC Tan.. EW. He might be a good and established photographer but omg, this man cannot teach..

Nearing the course end, where all the students were mad rushing product, i returned to portrait photography. haha. rush to finish my last piece of homework.

So this is Eric, my other VERY GOOD teacher helping and guiding me. Got my friend Mao Qi to help model and shu umera make-up artist/helpful friend Jasmine Kasumi to do the make up

The all white snow queen look we were going for to acheive a high key photo

And heres the GLAM Squad! Oh and i forgot about my friend who helped me with the set up and other stuff. Xin ying on the left. Thanks man!!

And heres the shot

I don't really need to worry about this one on copyrights after i saw that many other even more awesome students just post their works up without watermarking man. I was thinking aiyah. dont need to compromise my readers viewing pleasure since i haven reach the professinal standards yet. :S

Recent years i've been more sporty due to Army influence and after shedding those weight, you wanna keep it that way! So yeah, i joined the passion run for the second time. 10Km only but still not bad, i run till i wanna shit...

Speaking of which, i was thinking i should probably go sign up for the standard chartered marathon but i think i would try 21 km first! hahah 42 might just kill my kneess before i could even see the medal.

Finally updates on my label, Chad and Museum. Got the painter to paint my workspace aka my brother's ex room in punggol. Today i went to tidy it up and start moving some of my design stuff over. Soon, i will shift the sewing machine, steamer, fabrics and materials over and i can start designing the collection i plan to launch in September!

So thats about all what is going on in my life. I realise i get too lazy to blog since facebook allows instant updates about every single shit you are doing, going. But i shall continue to blog because i really want to keep a journal so one day maybe i can print this blog out or when I (AHHAHAHA) one day if ever write a memoir of my life then i would have things to refer to man!

Later!

Don't get so worked up~ Its just me

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