So i got evicted from the car cuz he's the driver and he used his military rank against me. I didnt even spoil that CD player. Now my whole family thinks im spoilt and always hangs around with rich kids when in fact only 2 of t.u.b. lives on landed property.

Sometimes i wonder why they never scold my brother for his bad academics, for watching TV whole day and for using 2 extra years to reach diploma standard. Ironically, they always tell me off my art stuff, that i dont spend more time learning how to drive, and doing more practical stuff. WHY do parents NOT reprimand their son for being stupid or lazy? BUT they like to scold them when its really not their fault that driving lessons depends on the instructor's schedule as well. WHY do parents think that school is only for studies and you should only attend lectures and forgo everything else. I know they still blame me for not using my time "wisely "such as learning driving but choose to travel, do a fashion show, work. Why cant they understand that certain opportunities only come once a lifetime.

And they never blame my brother for bumming around, yes, my brother dont work during holidays. Seriously, I really don't understand why they are so bad towards me so much so my brother dont feel so bad for being the dumber one.

And so this past year has been harder on me since im the socially lower status one cuz my brother sucked it up and became an officer, most prob due to ego and those smoking sessions he share with the superiors. My family will never understand what i am going through to be a 3rd sergeant cuz to them, i am 21 and still cant drive and is going to become a 2nd class commander.

BLOODY HELL.

Sometimes i think it would be so much easier if i was the dumb one; then, no one will expect so much from me. I am only human you know.


As much as i still think my family cares, most of the time, i think im still on the wrong radio channel after all these years trying to tune into theirs.