Then earlier today, i had my own quiet afternoon because everyone else went to Malaysia for THE wedding dinner. Actually i could have applied to go but wasnt really keen, so... ... dunno for the rest, but i sometimes like to spend time by myself; the serenity really calms my nerves. That is rest no amount of sleep could bring you.

Oh yah and my paper fringe dress is done. Looking forward to take pictures with Vanessa~!!! one more piece for my portfolio. Oh yah, i went to MDC for auditions and obviously i failed the artiste selection. DUH~!!! have to sing, dance, act and host. HOWEVER, i did got through the auditions for costume designing. LOL, its nice to know that someone out there appreciates and understands what you are doing. hmmmm...... this was the intitial track i wanted when i first started out in NS. But now, im looking forward more to command school. I actually found some meaning in going through shit with "brothers". Funny Eh? coming from me.

Life so far has been really fun and i've tried something i always wanted to try but no balls or chance to try! Thats dancing and although i stumbled in the "so you think you can dance" games day event, it ended my BMT with a blast!

So this is my Platoon 4!!! LOVE THEM!! ok, except the F4 people. Try to spot me~!!! i will really really miss them.... We are all individual pieces of Jigsaw and together we form a beautiful picture.

something i scribbled during the unofficial night of BMT.

I can't sleep. All the flashbacks are too overwhelming for me. All those memories of digging your own grave to sleep in, eating biscuits with mud on your hands, running like you've never ever before, those first day jitters, the skit. They say you shouldn't attach emotions to things because when they come to an end, you will feel the most. Kinda true now that i spent most of my time in that tiny island. Now that it has ended and im finally returning, i can't help but wonder, am i going home from 'home'?