I have been doing some reflection after seeing the picture of my brother's send off at the airport. Theres almost like 2 classes of students going for a overseas exchange. My family always compare my EQ with my elder brother. Maybe its true that he has higher EQ than me. He became the school prefect i wanted to be and went to that OCS that i never made into. He passed his driving test on his first attempt while im still struggling on my third try.

My family has always blamed me for not having an EQ equal to his but they have never once compared our academic results. No one blames him for using 5 years for secondary school nor watching TV when his homework is undone. But everyone only remembers me as the spoilt younger child. Do people realise they are hurting me with their comments? Do they know that yes, im a sensitive emo potato behind all those laughter and sarcastic jokes? Does anyone ever see my effort trying to be a better person? Do they acknowledge the occasional child in me?

Sometimes i wonder, why must everyone be so hard on me, i'm a perfectionist but i, too am not perfect.