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such is life
Friday, April 2, 2010
Just 2 weeks ago, one of my closest friend and i were going to meet up for tea. But it was canceled because her father was in hospital. And you know, people go to the hospital for all sorts of things urgent, non-urgent, no one would have expected things to end this way. He was a great father and husband as far as i know. In fact, we just met again during CNY in February. It was all too sudden.
Having seen all these in front of me made me realised how fragile life is. I wonder how am i going to be able to work in a hospital in future. I sort of seek a mild form of enlightenment from a friend who harvests kidneys in a hospital, questioning him about the thoughts that goes through his mind everyday and how he handles all these influx of emotions. "Such is life", he said. Simple as it might sound, but yeah, that's life and we have to face it.
I get scared sometimes at how fast we all grow up, at the speed our elder family members age, how illness gain the upper hand when we no longer have youth on our side. When you witness events like this, you sub-consciously know that someday, you too have to deal with that.
Gek teng said this after we left the funeral, " See, life goes on as per normal when everything is over". She added that she came to realise that the saddest part in life is all in the "what could have beens". What would have been if you had spent more time? What could have been if you hadn't held on to the worldly possessions that much? What if?
I come from a family background with strong Asian culture so we don't really practice hugging or exchange of expressions of gestures of love, saying i love you etc. I never understand what is with all these holding back when it comes to expressing our love to family members. I am guilty for not having the courage to do so. I just hope one day when it won't be too late when i finally have the balls to say it.
Don't get so worked up~ Its just me