Well, theres a reason why i went to Sentosa on a rainy sunday. Apparently, a couple of china relatives were here and my family was obligated to show them around. The younger sister has a degree from her province with a major in foreign language of English but i ponder why she doesn't know whats an avocado.

I really ponder about this issue quite abit. In exchange for a better life, why are chinese women willing to give up love? Have they looked past the facade of romantism? That it is better to face up to the realism of the world? Generally i don't blame anyone for wanting to provide for their loved ones. Esp, i know Singapore is quite in its own bubble away from the world as much as we would like to see it as a cosmopolitan. Singaporeans are sheltered, i won't deny that.

I know im still young and still holding on to certain idealistic beliefs that aren't practical. Then when i experience life more, i begin to wonder why did "adults" even ask children to dream big, in the first place; to hope and ask for more in life when they know we are going to be disappointed when we realise life is more of how we work around what we've got. Very few people get the chance to imagine and materialising their ideals. Maybe that is why i get such a strong sense of accomplishment from photoshoots. Its truly something i imagine without boundaries and creating it into a actual art piece.

Art is truly my escape. and i dont even mind getting lost in it.

hahaha sorry i side track abit. Anyway i was talking about Chinese women marrying here seeking what they imagined as a better life. That 2 relatives visiting actually seriously considered that idea and seriously im not liking it. We don't owe them a living and i don't understand why they are pressurising my family. Moreover, they made me think really deep.

I wonder is it greed? Is it greed transforming humans into ugly beings? Did one of this seven sins manage to grab hold of most of us in this materialistic world? Do we improve ourselves because we are greedy? Like want a nicer house, nicer car, nicer clothes; or just simply wanna be more awesome.

I really really wonder what is the one thing that push our directions in life. But then again, how can you say its greed when really all that girl wanted to do is to have the ability to provide for her family back in China? Isn't that love?

At the end of the day, what is really pushing us? Are we being greedy for wanting more from life? Is it wrong to want a greener pasture?

Im just silently glad i no longer desire material possessions like before :)